Riding the Emotional Roller Coaster
Sara: Lately, you could say I’ve discovered my emotional side. Of all the things I underestimated through my pregnancy to date, the crazy emotions of a pregnant woman have to top the list.
Sometimes, I’m simply unreasonable. I know I’m being unreasonable, but there’s no rhyme or reason for it. This past week, I’ve mostly been crying for no apparent reason.
When Justin and I watched the movie Secretariat, I started crying at the beginning of the movie (about five minutes into the story) because the mother died. When Justin asked me why I was crying, my only response was, “How would you feel if YOUR mother died?”
And, of course, there was the meeting where another colleague told the story of her brother coming back from war which sparked the waterworks as well.
Then there was the time I received an email from a colleague. Her request was more than reasonable, and normally I would have brainstormed on the best way to approach the common problem. However, I started to cry – for no apparent reason. I shut my office door, and just cried. Ten minutes later, when I was finally starting to feel a bit better, my office phone rang. It was one of my male associates whom I’ve only met once. He was kind enough to ask me how my pregnancy was going, and I felt the tears starting again. So I told him that I was feeling a bit emotional, and he said anxiously, “Don’t start crying on me! I promise not to call you ugly.”
After a few minutes, I felt a bit better, and was able to more fully join the conversation. Regardless, for the rest of the day, it was fairly easy for me to become upset or to feel the tears beginning.
While it doesn’t solve all emotional issues, I’m learning it’s important to recognize where my boundaries are, including when it’s time to get more rest. When I’m rested up, I’m less likely to get emotional for no apparent reason. Or, at least if I do get emotional, it typically doesn’t result in a 20-minute cry.
Another emotional time this week was when I bought my first maternity clothes. At 16 weeks, I’m just beginning to have a slight baby bump, so I want to be prepared when the time comes to need the maternity clothes. It was weird to be shopping for bigger clothes, and I almost felt like it was time to go on a diet and lose some weight. Thankfully, common sense prevailed before I got too emotional.
I was actually surprised to see how few stores even carried maternity clothes. Of the stores that carried maternity clothes, typically there were only one or two small racks of clothing. That is not even close to the selection I’m used to having when it comes to clothing, and it was hard to find anything I liked, but I did find several pairs of pants and a couple of tops. However, I did find several stores that carry cute maternity clothes, so I’ll have to continue to look as time goes on. I just hope I don’t need to find a dress to wear for any special occasions!